the missing link~

So, today (actually yesterday as I’m not able to sleep…AGAIN) something really funny happened.

You know, I’m not doing okay lately, I have come to realize that, and there’s nothing wrong with it. And I’m confident I’ll solve this whole mess sooner or later, for better or worse, and when it happens it’s not gonna be pretty.

But that’s not what happened, it does however have some sort of link with what I wrote yesterday: you see I was feeling pretty down, right now I feel my life is on hiatus. It’s like this damn mid season where there’s nothing to watch, and you keep trying to pick up something to watch but cant quite decide on it. We all know I’m waiting for Dexter to come back. And today (yesterday) something happened that somehow cheered me up, despite knowing some of the truth behind it(or at least that’s what I think) but right now I don’t plan on judging what just happened. I plan on enjoying what may come afterwards because this made me feel good about myself for once. At least for the time being. Not to mention it was awesome to see how well I can do sometimes.

These are the times where I scare myself to death. And that’s why I keep on running.

Let’s see if I manage to arrive, before I see myself coming.

cheers~

On a totally unrelated and after cut note: there were some pretty good comments @ facebook (this blog is automagically exported via rss to my fb acc) about, as Isa just said, my “most honest post ever” (yeah I like the sound of that, still think “hello, my name is lance and I’m an addict” is far better, this one was just…random bs) and I do appreciate em. However most of them are not exactly or about what’s going on here. I wish I was having a mid-life crisis as some pointed. That would be easier to manage (and a bunch of people have written stuff about it) but since it’s really not that simple I’ll just have to man up and endure this shit storm.

I will, in the coming days, explain the “time waits for no one” thing. I have a really cool excuse for it. It involves a movie, instead of a song. Woohoo!

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