the missing link~

This is me right now during the weekend. I totally needed to recharge, to spend sometime alone and take care of myself. I even got a damn haircut before it was too late. Read late as in, too damn long for me to care. I’ve cut ties with the entire world for a weekend, watched movies, had some lunch on my own, barely spoke to my blood relatives.

Anyway, this week was pretty busy. it took it’s toll on me. People demanding shit left and right and not stopping one second to think: what about what this guy wants? how does he feel? You can see why I’ve sent so many people recently to the “distant past” list. Because of that very same reason, either they try to screw me up (read take advantage and / or back stab if possible) or they just want something out of me and then promptly dump me.

Here’s some news to you all: you might get to do that once or twice, but once the shit hits the fan it’s goodbye-so long for you. As I can take shit for about that much.

Also I would like to add that there’s someone that demands way too much out of me and that I cannot, no matter what I do, forsake. And that’s no other than me. I accept this much: I demand way too much out of me as I expect others to be the same if not better than myself. I know this might not be such a good feature, however that’s just how I roll and there’s no much I can do about it. I’ve tried to change the ways I act (see posts tagged as “karma” for further proof) but it seems I keep failing at that. I would be so happy if I would get rid of myself for a while. I don’t know how people can stand me sometimes. I’m annoying. You have no idea the amount of pressure I put on myself when it comes to get shit done.

All in all, what I would like for once is to people to cut me some slack for once and think of be, at least just a little, because god know I take them into consideration before doing anything. And I do think of their well-being too.

Maybe this all came out the wrong way and you think of me like I’m some sort of selfish prick, which is in fact (wait for it) true. However it doesn’t mean I’m a BAD selfish prick at it. I try to be fair. It’s just that the other people (read: pricks) aren’t as fair as I am.

I could cite the bible here (because I just saw 3:10 to yuma and Crowe as Ben Wade quoting the proverbs was just awesome) but I won’t. Because it would be pretty much next to useless.

I guess I’m done with my rant. Come Monday I should be ready for a new week of daily grind.

Later chaps.

So yeah, I lied.

Last night while I was trying to catch some zZz I was all like, “well, you went to this con and had some fun, why didn’t you comment on it?” and it was basically due to the fact that I either forgot about it or completely blocked the fact that it actually happened. Due to the INCREDIBLE amount pain I felt on my back. Jesus, standing for three days straight must have taken some sort of toll on it, not to mention that on Friday we did a small work out, sort of like, a kick off. That’s right, it was work related. But it was good fun, I really liked it. This comes from a guy who hates sunny days and such.

So what’s this con I mentioned? http://www.convencionavalancha.com/ I spent the last weekend @ USM, I did get there really late on Friday and got in free, and since it was the very first day I was finally able to buy (after what it seems EONS) this please note that this is not an actual pic of it, I’ll take one in the coming days. You have no idea how much time I’ve spent hunting down that damn thing. For those who know me (or at least I’d like to think they do) Shinomori Aoshi means a great deal to me, and the group he led served as an inspiration for the guild I led for quite some time. Notice the domain? That’s right, I thought so.

So that’s a “check” for me. I’ve bought a lot of useless toys in the past, but this one was something I REALLY wanted. It made me quite happy.

There’s something that has been bothering me for the past few days, and it’s pretty much written somewhere in my head. Let’s see if I manage to put that fucker down in the coming days.

Before I leave ya, I decided to do a small search on the “avalancha” tag, found two posts, this one is directly related to the said event. The other one is quite funny, as it’s pretty much the same post I wrote yesterday. I wonder if this is bound to happen EVERY SINGLE YEAR. I seriously hope it’s not gonna happen next year.

This is one of the reasons I love my blog and continue to use it, serves me as a time travel machine. I can go back and check how fucked up was, or still am. Prolly gotten worse with time.

Cheers~